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The life you have in a hostel, is a life of hardships, depressions, weight loss and complete breakdown of your core values or core identity who perceive yourself, when you are home. Hostel life has a deep impact on you, and you will actually experience it when you are staying in one.
The Artwork Speaks for itself
The songlist and in general songs in your Ipod, seem to make much more sense, you think a lot, and the only way to survive this limited or eternal doomness is to keep yourself engaged in things gives you temporary happiness, but after sometime memories will haunt you again.
A song in my Ipod suddenly becomes an anthem of my life called as “Fine again” by seether. The general feel of the song is that the person is in dilemma about the way things are going on in his/her life, the person is feeling happy and sad alternately and he/she is just put in a dilemma about, whether the things going on in their life are good or bad. The song opens on a great guitar riff, which sets the mood of the song.
Sometime Your reality converges to this point
Well when you’re in a hostel, the life is pretty much the same, everyday follows a certain fixed pattern, there are no variation in your daily routine, this routine takes the bright light out of you(It seems like every day’s the same), and its own responsibility to find something that engages you, so that you don’ t feel lonely(And I’m left to discover on my own). Engaging yourself in discussion about miserable life you’re having in a hostel with your fellow mate doesn’t really help, rather it depresses you further (it seems like everything is gray and there’s no color to behold), moreover you lose your enthusiasm about your work, and you start fading away from the flow of life(try to staysober feels likes I’m dying here).
The various instances in the video BTW Amazing video really suits the song
Even when after all this, hope doesn’t really fade away, it stays it burns much brighter. Life is not the same for everyone, people will start lecturing you about you about how their life is, and they start imposing their ideals about life into your life, and that’s the point when you have to take a stance, whether the change which they expect in you, which they think will be better for you is right or what you think about yourself, and about the change you’re experience is good/bad is right, well that’s what put in in dilemma.Actually this dilemma shakes you to the core and suddenly you start questioning your way of life, whether it is right or not(And I am aware now of how Everything’s gonna be fine one day Too late, I’m in hell I am prepared now Seems everyone’s gonna be fine One day too late, just as well). But after all this, you seem to forgot an important point that its you who has to take control of your life, and its your decision to change yourself to a better man, but whose values are much different, from the ones you carried so dearly until now.
Sometimes it is difficult to differentiate whether a change is necessary or not……..
Well this takes your life to a newer level, the dreams that you hold good for yourself, start unfortunately to fade away slowly, and actually it is all because you never really experienced the real woirld when you’re home. When the people around you give you lectures about how you should change for good, you find out that you better stick to the older life, they seem to force to impose that decision onto you, and call you a coward/ traitor, a spineless leech(I feel the dream in me expire And there’s no one left to blame it on I hear you label me a liar). People(well wishers??) say that you’re just an arrogant person, rather you’re a person, who just afraid to see a change coming through, is when you start losing your mind to mental instability, and you start feeling paranoid, a fish out of water(‘Cause I can’t seem to get this through You say it’s over, I can sigh again, yeah Why try to stay sober when I’m dying here), morever the mental trauma and bad experience you have had here have a much deeper impact on you, that you start feeling worse, when you go back home again.
The Artwork of the Album from which the song is……
All of a sudden, you remind yourself about your true good values that you hold good for yourself, are actually the truth, even when sometimes a change is necessary to move onto, but the change is not the thing that you want to experience now. Well after this, there is a lot of ripping out at people(who think are well-wisher, but actually are just playing with your mind)(And I am aware now of how
Everything’s gonna be fine one day Too late, I’m in hell I am prepared now Seems everyone’s gonna be fine One day too late just as well) moreover you start seeing the faults in them, how they themselves are scarred, deeply damaged individuals, and how dare they impose a change on you, you just reassure yourself that karma will get to them sooner or later(And I’m not scared now
I must assure you You’re never gonna get away And I’m not scared now and I’m not scared now no)
I must assure you You’re never gonna get away And I’m not scared now and I’m not scared now no)
But the greater irony of all the things you’re experiencing now that even when you know the people who are telling you that you can still be a better person are wrong, and that your conscience is the only thing right, you have to face the grater demons in you, and actually all this has converged to this point that, you have to face yourself.( I am prepared now for myself, the greatest lines ever), but still you choose to run away from the fight, and start going back to the same old you( I am prepared how and I am fine again)
This hostel life takes a toll on you mentally, at least I am experiencing it now. Actually it is a fight of how strongly you can defend your ideals and values, which you so dearly behold.
Endless Journey 